I just had a chat with a friend last night, the kind of friends who think I should move on, that thinks that W went too far and that she's probably deep in love with OM and that to stand, isn't going to help.
She said that when women leave, they don't come back. I don't want to believe in what she said but I guess she planted the seed of doubt in my mind.
I know that it doesn't change anything in what I want/need to do and that I'll carry on GALing and 180ing as well as working hard at getting the best home and life for me and D8, but it affected my PMA. What if she is in love? Didn't I think she was anyway? There are signs all around. What if I'm underestimating him? Maybe he's a great guy? After all, the woman I love and respect has actually chosen to be with him. That's the same woman who then chose to marry me. What if he's a great guy? Why would she leave him for me, even if i change. I let her down once, I might do it again, in her mind. Besides, I'm raising her child, quite well. I'm safe. She doesn't need to give me love. I'm doing these things for my D8. I'd like to hear from WAW or MLC wives who were emotionally involved with OM and who eventually went back home.
What was their state of mind? How did they come to the conclusion that home was the better choice? Did something trigger it?
I'm losing hope. It might just be a bad day. The bad day which usually follows the good ones. Nonetheless, I'd still like the perspective of a WAW who returned.
OK. Enough!!! I need to cheer myself up!!
A nice day to all!
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
