Lots of questions and a good deal of doubt.

[mshaf]

I am still feeling more detached from my sitch.

With the rollercoaster ride of emotions over the past few months, I was left wondering yesterday if my sense of calm would be short lived.

I am not "done" with my M by any means. I have simply realized that I cannot continue to think about this everyday.

For my own sanity I have to start to move forward with my life.

I am going to continue to become a better person, better father. I will continue with my changes. Now I am starting to actually feel my changes are for me.

It feels good to have let go a little bit.

I am beginning to accept that what happens will happen and I will be ok.