Thanks to both of you for the words of encouragement. I feel better about my situation today than I have in a while, I dont really know why because its exactly the same, but im at least a little more at peace than I have been. With that being said I can tell you that I miss my wife desperately, but she sure isn't going to see that side of me. Im not going back to begging and crying to win her back. I've got a note her on my desk at the office that I jotted down last week from someone's post that says "beome the spouse that only a fool would divorce" and that is my goal.
Im going to double up on my working on me and just let the rest take care of itself. But I do know that she has to be dealing with this situation as well at least occasionally in her quiet moments she has to be thinking about it. And i've also said all along that today is when "real" life begins for her again. One of the things that has made this much easier for her I think is that its been summer and my boys haven't had anywhere to be each day so dealing with things like making them go to bed when they don't want to, or get up when they don't want to, or do homework when they don't want to, she hasn't had to face any of that.
Im interested to see how much she truly enjoys being a single parent now that they are back in school and she's responsible for everything. Im sure thats petty and childish of me, but at the same time this is the road she has chosen so im anxious to see if its still a trip she likes when she has all of that to deal with.
