Jks, post again today about how you are. I will be thinking of you all day today. Can you get out and take some pics? Of something new? Different subjects? Different lighting? Different backgrounds?
RH, thank you for your support and to you other ladies as well. I do think I'm slipping into a depression. I do have AD's and have been trying to take them regularly but I don't have a routine with them so I forget quite often. Sometimes I don't even know if they help. My situation is just so depressing as it is.
I fell asleep last night probably around 4:30 or later and now have a huge headache. I didn't really sleep much and I look like a train wreck.
I have to go in to work today and I saw that they gave me a huge load of work to do. They emailed me all of the clients I have this morning. So I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed because I can't focus. Plus, I don't know what I'm going to be doing with my kids when I get them back this week and have to go in. It takes me a long time to get my work done right now because its so new so I'm not as efficient as I need to be.
Just makes me sad that I'm going to have to work 40 hours a week and my H will have my kids 3 days of the week so I will feel like I don't ever see them. Don't get me wrong. I'm grateful for the job but I'm going to miss being in my children's lives as much as I have been. They're at an age where they're changing and learning so much everyday. To miss one day is to miss a lot. Especially with D1. I swear she's saying a new word every day.
Ugh... I'm just so heartbroken in so many ways. I want to be stronger but my mind continues to lead me down a negative path.
RH, what suggestions do you have as far as finding the right IC? I could Google people but don't know what to look for?
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
