I have to agree with Arsene at this point. I am new here and am going thru WAW. Its hurts so much to know you have damaged the person you love more than anything in the world and now you can't fix it....yet.
Keep changing towards the positive, be positive, improve everything in your life. This is what I am trying and I hope and pray that one day my W will recognize my true sincerity. Like I said I am new, so this might not be of any use to you. But self improvement will never hurt you regardless.
If you ever had true love, I believe she will want it back as much as you.
