Thanks Arsene. That’s great W mentioned the idea of doing something. Your right, you can’t read into it too much but that’s still really good!!! It sounds like we feel similar around our W’s. I saw my W yesterday for just a couple minutes during our “kid’s exchange”. After it was over I overanalyzed the encounter. I seem to have a history of doing this. I probably should have asked W a couple questions but I just seem to almost freeze in a way. Don’t get me wrong, I think I act “OK”. I threw the football on the lawn with my kids and all the neighbor kids, my son jumped on my back for a piggy back ride and W got to see me interact with our kids as they were laughing and having fun. I kept a smile on my face the entire time. Once again, the only thing I should have done differently is asked W a couple questions about her. Oh well, there’s always another time.
While writing this post I think it’s evident that I haven’t truly detached. It’s frustrating because I know it would make me feel better however turning the “detachment light” on/off within a couple month isn’t realistic when you’ve been with someone for 15 years! It was great seeing my kids for the weekend, it really helps get my mind off my sitch.
Time to forge ahead, keep my head up and stay strong.
