WEIRD is totally fine!!! Yes Weird! That's accurate. Nothing surprises me tho. I just sit on the blanket and don't get sucked in.
It was strange when he was talking about D paperwork and visa paperwork getting out of the one he's in now applying for another what would be involved etc etc. And I just sat there thinking none of this concerns me I don't really need to know the ins and outs and I thought WOW I really have detached from that. And I said right so all I'm doing is not including you on my visa app in a few months. And it sounds like you're taking care of the whole filing for D. cool.
I read something today on the daily love. I subscribe to their newsletter it's really good. Anyway it said that he'd had a back injury and because of that he was including more yoga and less gym and he said if I didn't look at the injury as a bad thing but just as part of the journey what would I do differently? If it's only another part of my journey then it's just information.
I like that...so this separation, this M, this D, is just another part of my journey...just like loads of other things that have happened in my life.
H texted me from the airport and we had a very nice exchange where I thanked him not just for giving S a ride by for being the guy that cares enough to stay and make sure he gets on the plane and is safe. It means so much to me. I said I'm so glad we can have a weird modern family and make it work it makes me very happy. He replied and said We may not be in love anymore but I will never stop loving that boy or his mother. (then he told me he was in tears in the motorcycle magazine section of a bookshop) And I told him that yes I'd always love him too.
I think it's fantastic that we had that moment today. I'm not trying to win him back, but it's a massive massive step forward from not being a part of his life previously.
