Our friend's funeral is tomorrow. H has pulled back a lot during this. After I came back from being out of town last week, he seemed a little closer. He is talking a little bit about the investigation of the accident. I am not asking, just listening without trying to interrupt when he wants to talk about it.
When the D bomb hit, he told me I was going to give him a heart attack and that his life was more important. I am sure that this is making him see death a lot closer than he would like, and forcing him to again see that he is not immortal and will not live for ever. And I know that there is nothing that I can do right now other than reassure him and listen to whatever he tells me.
I have a fairly busy week, and for part of the weekend H will be out of town. So hopefully I will have time to DB while he is gone and get my act back together.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together