I am sorry that you find yourself in this particular place on your path. Even though it does not feel like it, I must say that I hope this is all part of the "let go of good to make room for great" process for you.
I find it interesting that you compare losing your wife to D -v- death, as I would prefer having to deal with the D -v- the stuckness of where we are right now.
Of course, this is all saying that someone/thing outside of ourselves has the power to dominate the way we are feeling. That doesn't take away from the loss that you are mourning at all. Your D is fresh, and mourning the loss of a dream is all a part of the process.
You know you are the 2 or 3 person to comment on that post-honestly I was embarassed after I posted it, it felt very personal and open. But hey, it's the truth, and it's what we ALL deserve.
(((((huggs)))))
Me-31 H-24 D3,D2 M 4 yrs WAW(me) 12/2011 role reversal 03/2012 (H)PA 3-6/2012 (H)D filed 6/2012 D deemed "inactive", closed 8/2012 I've moved on 9/2012
