thanks KD - yes it's fear behind the anger - but maybe this time it's less fear of him going through with it and more fear of what i used to do when i was angry.
it's as if i don't trust my own changes even though i KNOW that they are real.
work through it. You've proven you can.
yes - thanks for reminding me - this time though i want more time, but i guess the growing up part is knowing i have to work through it in the time i have
if he switches to the fast train, let it run... or it will run over you... and remember, it will likely run right off the tracks...
i needed to read this - many many times.
all through the day i have been telling myself - don't let what he is doing affect your mood. usually i'm so much better at refocusing, but today i cannot even begin to find it except in going to anger and resentment. i guess i'll have to ride my own wave out
kd - i know you're busy with other things - but thank you from the bottom of my heart. i really needed your words tonight.
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i'll be the best zig i can be in this state that i can manage
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
