What if she doesn't RT? What if she doesn't "wake up"?
I know mine told me to "wake up" several times. Not sure she was talking to me at those times.
I stopped listening as it wasn't relevant. Just like the name calling and anger etc.
But what if they don't wake up? Are you going to be in limbo for ever? Is it possible to detach and believe she might one day "wake up" and try to repair damage? Many do but many don't as well. Others may "wake up" and never try to do anything to repair it instead running from that shame.
Personally, I had to face that and realized since it's not about me and since she wanted so badly to run from me and to blame me, that no matter what happens there is no longer any connection. There just isn't. While I hope the best for her, I am not hanging around to see what happens any longer. I think it was a morbid fascination for a while as well, with me. Like watching a train wreck in slow motion - just couldn't look away for a while.
Now I'm at a point where I wish her well. I've been there for a while. I do, but in the same way I wish the postman well. I am not interested in seeing or hearing about it. I just know that I don't wish her any ill will and don't wish what she went through on anyone. I'm truly happy for her even if she still goes out of her way to keep the anger fires burning
Cheers,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
