I'm having problems not being clinging and pursuing today, which is understandable under the circumstances. I will do my best to try to not pursue the rest of the day. H told me that he cannot do what he wanted to do today because everyone was interfering with that, so I know that I need to let him have his space today.

This also makes me realize that I have a long way to go to emotionally detach. And to GAL, because this shows me I really have no one to share my feelings with other than H, and I can't even do that right now.

I hate crying in front of D16 because it makes her upset.


M44 H57
D17 (special needs)
M 18 yrs
Bomb 7/2/12
Still living together