The toughest part of this being a Christian is that I believe God already knows the outcome, that He wouldn't put more on us than we can handle, and that it would be His desire for us to R at some point and honor our vows and His bringing us together as one in the first place. I just don't feel any of that right now.
I don't see how this will play out. I'm already at my breaking point. R seems impossible.
Faithnomore,
I know this is hard, but I'm pretty sure that would be the whole "and not unto your own understanding" part. "TRUST in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding."
Maybe as a first step, you might want to change your username. It's very defeatist, unless I'm not understanding it correctly? You're basically starting every post with a negative confession.
