Well then I don't see what options you have. Does her XH, involve himself in his son's life? If so, then maybe he needs to know about the OM's violent tendencies. Don't trust your GF with that. Protect your SS first.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
Odds are against everything I might want to do. The real dad is not in the picture, he is in jail, a drunk and drug addict. The only one I can trust is in the Lord.
Please, to all of you who are reading my posts, I ask you to pray for the well being of my SS13. It is killing me, more than the rupture with W, that something bad might happen to him and I will not be there to protect him.
I am still here, ALIVE!! Since this past weekend I have had no contact with W. After she said she needed me to respect her decision of moving on with her and SS13 life, I decided to do just that, so I have made a tremendous effort to keep away from them. The only contact was from my SS13, he called me to let me know that the dogs needed to eat because they were skinny. In my opinion, it was my XW putting tabs on me because my SS13 has never ever being interested on the dogs, much less call me to let me know the dogs need food. Anyways, I also refused this idea, by repeating to my self: "Do not start assuming anything about XW, just take it for what it is, the dogs need food."
I have started my own "brainwash", everytime I have a flash of her, I said to my own: "STOP IT!! STOP IT!! She is not your happiness, your happiness comes from the Lord God, and yourself. Your selfsteem comes from Him and you. Just remember, she is manipulative, lies, and selfish. You do not need that". I have to repeat that almost every minute of the day, but it is working, I do not feel the anguish on my chest as hard as a few days ago. The Lord is with me, and he is my strenght in all this, He will give me "wings of eagles" to fly over the storm.
It is an intense internal fight, there is still the need of her presence. Like I said, she is not my happiness, my happines comes from the Lord and myself, I am worth because the Lord has given me this value, and I must cherish it. The road I must go thru is full of MY OWN obstacles. The pain is inevitable, but the suffering is optional, therefore I have decided to feel the pain, and then let it go. I will not feed it because I do not need the suffering.
Again, I pray to the Lord for me to become a better man, and for the well being of my XW and SS13. I pray just for that their well being, it is out of my hands to change anything. The Lord has control over it, so I am letting him deal with it.
XW called a few minutes ago, but I did not answer. She left a voice mail saying that she was calling me just to see how I was doing, and that she hoped I was doing ok. This phone call made upset and got me thinking on what the heck she is doing, but I got my big red STOP IT!! attitude, and just said to myself that it was her problem, not mine.
One more thing, where is Eric? I haven't seen him lately on the forums.
XW called a few minutes ago, but I did not answer. She left a voice mail saying that she was calling me just to see how I was doing, and that she hoped I was doing ok. This phone call made upset and got me thinking on what the heck she is doing, but I got my big red STOP IT!! attitude,
AA,
Good job!!!!
We're not allowed to post links on here, but do yourself a favor and do a search on YouTube for "Bob Newhart just stop it" for a hysterical comedy skit.
A hilarious skit.. Non the less a great advice to all of us going thru our sitchs.
One more thing, If anybody new is reading my posts, PLEASE, PLEASE, LISTEN TO THE VETS IN HERE AND DETACH FROM SPOUSE, YOU WILL HAVE A CLEARER MIND AND WILL NOT IDOLIZE HER/HIM. WITH A CLEARER MIND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO MAKE BETTER DECISIONS TO MAKE YOURSELF BETTER AND BY CONSEQUENCE INFLUENCE YOUR SPOUSE IN A POSITIVE WAY.
God Bless you all, and restore peace in your hearts!!
