Not a very happy story, I'm afraid..

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AAARrrrrrrrrgh. Venting a bit. We are home together today until she goes to work in a couple hours. Had breakfast, she cooked, I cleaned up. Light conversation. Then she went outside to drink her coffee and read a book. I didn't want to pursue, so I went to the computer room and got online to drink mine. I have some photos to work on anyway. Found facebook posts about her horoscope?? Not a big deal or anything, but odd that she was thinking about this enough to post it on facebook just before breakfast but not enough to make conversation about it.

I am trying to detach, and logically I know I will be OK even if everything falls apart. But it is so against my nature to just sit here as if everything is cool when it so, so isn't. It drives me nuts that she was complaining about me being unavailable, so over the course of a few months she got herself super busy, and now she's home and she might as well not be. She's completely switched off. Maybe it's a taste of my own medicine, but it hurts. And it feels WRONG to sit here and not talk about it, like it can only make things worse. But I know that doing what feels "right" isn't going to work, that's just going to drive her further away.

I am going to drink my coffee and go for a swim in a bit. Once I finish these photos.