"I do believe I'm right about my W. It's what's frustrating me, how can I have read so many books and online resources, seen everything unfold right before my eyes, heard the things she's said to me match exactly what is documented in so many places. Yet I can't do what just about every documented resource says to do -> let go! I've always looked at it analytically as though it were a psychological case study and it's helped me shrug off the hurtful things she's said to me throughout MLC. It has hardened me a lot, but I'm wary of over hardening. That's partly why I'm cautious."
I feel the same way. The thing I noticed though is that every time I seem to be in a frame of mind where I'm ready to let go, she softens her approach and reels me back in. It's like she senses what's going through my mind and she is much better at this game than I am.
There is, here as well, a fear that with me letting go, I might lose the only thing which still links us and the only chance we've got at a bright future together, my hope.
I don't remember your timeline RT. Have you been at this for the last 2 years as well? The last year for me was fine though. I actually thought we had worked things out. She'd made plans for a future together and I was excited at the prospect of a great exciting life together, and then? Bomb Drop through email and my life has never been worse than it has for the last 3 months.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
