can Turtles still stand?

[zig]

that's so sweet keep going. only when i read your words i realized that i had felt a bit discouraged about the events of today.

not discouraged about h, but about myself that there was still so much defensiveness deep within me that came out in these tiny little ways.

i did have that thought earlier that i was surprised at my sensitive reaction to h in the classroom - i was way more nervous than i even began to realize. that is a very very sensitive arena for both of us.

but i did do better than usual today. and i am glad that i apologized. i guess sometimes when h is acting so damn tough, i actually forget that he is deeply sensitive and i had really hurt his feelings and he was really struggling in there facing that circle of parents, most of whom know what is going on.

now when i think about it he was a real mess tonight - after hte meeting he helped carry some tables out and i walked off not saying anything to find the kids who were playing outside, but i did feel his vibes and he was really struggling. i though he'd come find s and me to say bye, but him driving off - that's when i realized that he was not in good shape

so thank you for the encouragement i really appreciate it

zig