So here's my life.....
 
Yesterday he told me that a colleague was cleaning out his mum's house (she died) and she had this gorgeous little kitchen gadget from the 70s that he knew I would love. He said I like it but I don't need it and I know you'd love it. And I said well only if you're sure.
 
Today he texted me a picture of it and said do you want it. I said yes if you're sure. It's so cute. So he said he'd come by and drop it off after work. I told him I be home between x times but that I was going out with friends tonight in the city where he now lives.
 
I got home (a bit later than I'd said) and his car was out front. So I go in we chat he shows me thing explains it will need rewiring. I say won't you do that for me. He's says you're a smart girl. I said I'll get X to do it, he's a trained electrician. He said who's that your new man? (meow) I said: no my co-worker you’ve met him?? Then he says I can’t hang about. GF was meant to be doing something until 10 but she broke her hand. She sent me a pic of it all mangled. I said so is she at the hospital He says no she's at home waiting for me to take her to the hospital. And I go well why are you still here LOL and he goes I thought I'd offer you a ride. (!!!!!!!!) so I say make sure you don't tell her you kept her waiting with a broken hand because you were at your wife's house!!! He went to use the loo and I got changed. I was wearing a skimpy sundress and knew I looked hot. LOL so we talked and stuff it was all pretty breezy. He couldn't decide whether or not to go somewhere with her in a couple of weeks I was like do what you want. I told him a few stories about work etc and I said it made me really happy when x happened and he said kind of quietly you should be. We were almost to where he was going to drop me off and he said its a bit like old times I didn't really know what to say so I made a joke and was like do you need a minute are you reminiscing?  And he laughed. He said goodbye told me to have a good time and to tell my friend who is getting married congrats from him he always liked her. I said okay and thank you for the ride and then I said hope GF's hand Is okay guess that means no (censored) for you for a bit and he said you know me I was never into that (he was never in s@x full stop but anyway......) I said are you freaking kidding me? You loved that! He was like really? Maybe I should try that again. (at this point I'm leaning into the passengers side window) and I just said I don't want to hear about it but trust me I know what you like and walked off! (now I disn't want to be crude but thought it was important that you guys know this convo happened. Discussing s@x? Like that?

No DBers I don't know what my deal is either and maybe I should sort that out. At the moment post D convo with H I feel more free. I am who I am and he knows who that is. I'm fun I'm flirty and I'm slightly entitled. On the car ride, He made fun of me because I was talking about a hotel work put me in once and he imitated a valley girl accent. But that's who I am and what he loved I am girly and fun. I'm tough but like to be pampered. 
Nothing's changed it's just more spinning top I'm still on the blanket and now I'm not really minding my p's and q's on said blanket! 
And tonight's drink is rum!