Denver and Starsky: Thanks to you both.....im feeling more encouraged this morning than I have in a while. Even though my sitch has been going on 9 weeks or so, its only just now really starting in my mind. I reason that because school starts back for the boys, real life begins, and I didnt truly go very dark until just a couple of days ago. I've done NC all along, but at the time it was because she asked for space and I wanted to respect that. This time its my choice to go dark and I think there will probably be a difference in the two. At the very least there will be a difference in my mind between the two and that has to show up in any non-verbal communication.
And as much as i've hated to admit this all along, I am at least somewhat hopeful that a couple months of me going dark will be a benefit to me becoming ok either way. If it serves to do that as well then it will be a double bonus in my mind.
