Divorced. My fault, and cant move forward

[Mrs D]

Carnac - do you think shed sign off custody to you? That was one of the things in our divorce - it was going to be 50/50 split custody. H would always say he didnt want to be a part time Dad, but if we were to divorce, this is how he wanted it. My friends think it was more that he didnt have to pay child support now that he doesnt seem to take much interest in our son - and it could be, but that isnt the man I married. Although - he isnt the man I married right now anyway regarding his son.

There were a couple days last week our son didnt want to go to Hs house. Course when I brought it up to H, he thought I was putting something in his head. Im not that kind of person. Im not going to intentionally say things to hurt my son to make me look better. I have more respect for my son and the situation than that.

I was the WAW at one point. When I had the EA and the one night PA, never was thought in my mind think the marriage was over. I was always asking to stop the divorce. I didnt want the divorce. But I continued with the EA because in my mind he was just a friend. I was selfish, and didnt take my Hs feelings into consideration. I honestly think my H was over the one night PA. It was the EA that ruined my marriage in the end.