Divorced. My fault, and cant move forward

[Mrs D]

Carnac: - awesome quote - I am going to have to write it down and put it across my monitor to remind me daily.

It appears our nights were about the same regarding families...

You know in all honesty, I wish my H would be doing more stuff with our son so that maybe he could feel this sort of thing as well you know? I mean, when our son is with H, they dont do much together from what I understand. I think my son plays with the next door girl, or plays Xbox most of the time that he is there. Which hurts me even more for him. I guess H did take him to cruise night last weekend, but he was with one of his friends, and of course the next door little girl. So maybe it didnt effect him as it does I? IDK.

I didnt hand the phone over to my son last night to call his Dad, nor did he ask to call. H never called him as well to wish him goodnight. Although I think he had a union meeting, he still could have took 2 minutes out of his night to call him. I dont get the person he is right now. Our son was ALWAYS #1. Since hes found this new life - he isnt. I just dont get it.