I'm just got caught up on everyones threads. I'm hiding in my sewing room with my new TV that STBX didn't even notice I bought for myself. The kids carried off the crappy little one I had in here. I am listening to old country on Sonic Tap. Tempting fate. Sad as all this music is, it just doesn't make me cry.
I guess I am getting hru this all. Just like you all said I would. I made dinner, muffins for breakfast, did a ton of cleaning today. And now am getting caught up on some sewing projects. I watched one show with him while we ate dinner.
And began to formulate a plan in my little pea brain. One of the things where he and I went wrong was giving up the dinner table as a place to eat. We eat while watching TV. I don't know who might come along next in my life. But who ever they are, they are going to eat meals at the table, no TV, and they are going to be cabaple of holding a comversation with me.
STBX told me my dinner was good. It was an experimental brown rice, stuffed mushrooms, lots of veggies and just a little bit of pork. It was nice to hear him say something nice to me. And it doesn't give me any hope. He is just being nice to keep the peace.
I don't know much, but I know what done feels like. Part of me is looking forward to living alone. The part of me who was cleaning out great quantaties of old food out of the fridge today. The same part of me who did massive quantities of dishes today from all the crap hidden in the fridge.
I didn't hear from the VA people today. I have a personal theory that nothing happens on Mondays or Fridays. So I will call my employment counselor Tuesday morning to see what happens next. I should lay out my 'work' clothes and see what I have that I can wear. I will need a couple pairs of nice pants. All mine are either jeans or dressy. So I can do a little clearance rack shopping to fill in the holes. I have a lot of nice cartigans, layering is good here with the temperate outside COLD AC inside.
Oh, fate heard I wasn't crying, so "Honey" by Bobby Goldsboro just came on.... But that is okay, because it is a smiling while crying kind of song.
Aloha,
Wendy
PS Wish I could hug all your necks!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
