I woke this morning feeling really really good. I had a smile on my face and I remembered what had happened and I took a moment and thought about how much I love my life. I love how I acted in that situation. I love that I finally got to say I had the courage and strength to say let's look at our relationship I'm not who I was before and I'm happy about that. I am happy that I have learned to be still. When he was talking about all that stuff they'd looked into I just thought that doesn't really concern me. I am not worried about divorce proceedings or your visa. I'm off that crazy train (as Grace said) I'm happy that i've grown enough and matured enough to know that getting remarried isn't "success" I am happy whether I find someone in a few months or a few years. And I'm glad we talked about our friendship maybe we can be friends now that i've cleared him up on the idea that I'm not sitting at home pining for him
