Needing some guidance... 5

[labug]

Then ignore him, have someone else handle the kid exchanges. There's no rule that you have to see or talk to him. How much you see him is completely within your control.

You can't force yourself to have compassion if it's not there. Forgiveness is a process, it happens as it happens. Don't pressure yourself.

As far as the kids going to church, you should talk to a L and see what provisions can be made for that. Don't borrow trouble and worry about things that might happen.

I'm sure your Bishop is a wonderful person but there comes a time when you need a trained counselor. It's for you-seeing a counselor and being motivated to change have really turned my life around. Of course, it took my H leaving to really light my tail on fire so I have my sitch to thank for me getting healthy!

I know several people here have taken ADs to get through the rough part of this. Another option to explore.

Hope you get some sleep tonight.

(((J)))