No, I'm not. I only went to that family therapist once by myself. I didn't like him and haven't seen him since.
I've been counseling with my bishop from my church and others. I have been trying to turn my life over to my religion as much as possible right now because it truly is the only thing that brings me comfort.
It's been an important thing for me to have the kids continue to go to church every Sunday too. Now that he will have them, that will stop. (he walked away from our religion when he left me.) That devastates me more than anything.
There are so many things fighting against me. I feel like I'm trying with all my heart to overcome this and have compassion for him and understand. But these feelings are like a weekly occurrence. I don't know if I'm really progressing. And why that is, I don't know. Why is it so hard for me to move on? This is so crazy that I would put up with this for so long.
I don't know what to say to him... it's almost easier for me to ignore him. Just ignore this is even happening. I feel like I married a monster who is totally out of control and I just have to sit here and put a smile on my face and show that it doesn't affect me.
I am lost, once again. (sigh)
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
