This evening as I was parking my car in my garage I saw H's car parked across the street and my mother talking to him (H was inside the driver's sit). I was surprised, because usually H doesn't like to talk to my mom due to the fact that she's a very religious person and he's well an atheist. I walked towards them, said "hello" to my mom and H very briefly and proceeded to walk home. A good 20 minutes later my mom walked in and told me all the things she talked about with H.
My mother told me :" Honey, he told me he feels very guilty for all the things that happened between you two, he says he rather live like a piece of crap than making you suffer. He looked very nervous and tense also when you said -hello- and walked home he was looking at you with so much sadness in his eyes. Amelie,I know he still loves you.."
When she told me that, I little glimmer of hope lit up inside of me. I know I have a lot of work ahead of me to save my M, and I just ordered another book from Amazon "depression fallout".
