Grace, Love, Compassion, & Faith - Looks Like What

[25yearsmlc]

Thanks JS

Week continues to get harder. Just trying to breathe through it.

W asked for some stuff to finalize the Property Settlement Agreement.


Keep your eye on the prize, = FREEDOM and forward movement...this^^^ "stuff" is "stuff" and that is minutiae. Like a squid squirts ink into your eyes...don't let it blind you.

Big picture stuff my friend, BIG PICTURE....that's where you keep looking.

The list is pretty well split up. There are things that I want taken off the list. A laptop that no longer works, the camping gear that I owned before her....

... but these seem moot. I know I'm holding on there.

correct


But also on the list is our 2 cats and although I have been mentally and physically been preparing to let them go (haven't seen them in a year)... I don't feel like they are stuff.

They are not stuff---TRUE....and yet, you have not seen them in a year.
Does not mean you don't care--I KNOW but it does mean they are alright without you....
Sweetie, trust me there are dogs and cats who'd LOVE to belong to you, in shelters all around. Start new...(And maybe get a breed that doesn't shed)

I feel like I'm giving up my rights to "my children".

Maybe this is my last desperation to hang on to something that was.


Maybe so...or a little bit of anger and wanting things to be "more even"....as if


But BIG PICTURE---you are the "winner" here anyhow. Not b/c of what SHE does or does not do...

but b/c of what YOU have done.
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Maybe I am hesitant cause one day I will regret giving them to her.

I don't know guys. This is all soo very hard.

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Well, it's true that you may have some regrets later.... Really, I get that...and I'd have the same damn fears if I were you.

But I know the regret you will NOT have is that you were petty or mean.

On the contrary, you really did step UP to the plate of pain, w/grace and dignity. That you grew UP, and that outwardly your inner growth showed.

That's more important, & it's a pretty good trade, isn't it?

Go be happy, my friend.