I have been reading Eric's post and some others. I just realize, that indeed I am tired and wanting to call it quits. Big BUT, I see there is a pattern in all the posts I read. They all and mine have something in common, we feel at some point to throw in the towel, and really feel this is the end of the rope for us, but as time progresses, the little spark to keep on the fight continues.
Something I learned, and even tough it is so simple to understand, yet too hard to do, is that I CAN NOT CHANGE MY W, therefore, I must let her go (for now). Let her live her life, let her see that when in the tunnel she will be thinking of the good things I did, let her make new mistakes and for her to fix them, let her struggle with her own finances, let her love OM, that is her choice, let her see that the pastures are not greener on the other side, let her open her eyes to her life.
In other words, ALLOW MY SELF TO THANK GOD FOR THE NEW DAY, FOR HIS LOVE, LET ME BE IN CONTROL OF ME, LET ME LEARN HOW TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN, LET ME FOCUS ON MY WORK, LET ME START FIXING MY 350 FORMULA, LET ME START BIKING, LET ME MAKE MISTAKES AND FIX THEM.
