forgot to say. i feel your pain - the bit about you being a hopeless romantic. you're not alone. my "addiction" also (love) . maybe we need to try and wean ourselves off love just like an alcoholic and booze. like you- i can't truly envision this man gone forever. i can think of tons wrong with him - haven't truly accepted he may be gone forever. maybe, really, he is not the person i thought he was and i shouldn't love him any more. easy to say huh?
good luck tho, and be thankful for your kids - somewhere to channel the love- tell them. kids never laugh at you- they will thrive on your expressions and you will do tons of good- kids need alot of love, nothing is too much and they give it back so freely.
if you discover the cure - let me know. i'm someone who wants to be strong & detached & seems to short. -
