I've been crying a bit. I don't want to. i want to be more detached than this. I want to be stronger than this.
now there's a silly sentence if i ever heard one.(((((( ))))))
of course you're crying, of course you're sad of course you want to be more detached.
but being any more detached means you don't give a crap and that's not true. so cry your heart out now tonight. if you give yourself permission to cry, you will let out a lot now, when it's really at the surface and can come out - and then you won't have a problem getting up and going to work in the morning.
don't resist the emotion - acknowledge it fully now, because everything else is repression and that's not what you want to carry with you.
and guess what? if you let yourself fully acknowledge it, and give yourself real real permission to cry, i've a slight feeling you may be surprised at how fast you go through it. i think it lingers longer when while we are feeling it we are saying to ourselves 'i shouldn't feel like this"
go meditate, and practice tonglen on yourself, h and ow. you can do it. and when you come out of that, you will feel so much compassion for all three of you, that serenity will be right with you and a lot of peace to carry you through the next few days.
i'm here brit and so are the rest of us, to help you through this ((((( ))))) zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
