i'm sorry it went down like that. i can't help thinking that so much of what he said was script and fog and all that shite that we've had to deal with.
i'm so glad you didn't resist, didn't freak out, that you dropped the rope. let him have it - let him feel that yes this is going to happen and it's all in his lap now, and then he can really start to see what he's got and left with.
he's still holding on to that "it will be horrible if we try thing" and there's nothing you can do about it except go on with being the best brit you can be.
there aren't enough hugs i can put on this post that i want to give you right now.
i hope that you will go do a really long meditation, or a really long run - anything to keep you extra balanced right now..
i am so proud of you , the way you handled this whole thing. and it's done. but like you told me just because our worst fears are seeming to come true - doesn't mean that we should spin off on them.
they are just words right now. just let them go. i cna't help wondering that he came over to test and see if you would react the way you did in may.
i have to get back to work, but will check in in a little bit to see how you are
everyone = blanket hug and brit - just come sit with us and you can have 5 shots of your favorite whatever. i'm bringing a big bowl of strawberries and cream, and let's move that elephant over to the edge so we can all fit on the blanket - because we are all there right now, with you, sweet sweet friend
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
