Just checking in. Overall it appears you are still attached. The feelings to protect. Rescue.
Read detachment again. It is unhealthy for you to think or desire that you can save someone from their own choices. It is called codependency.
You are allowing her to invade your process of detachment because you are waiting...starving for, some little crumb of evidence that she might be changing or coming around.
I will tell you as long as you are still in that mind you will not move forward...
If she did come back you would fall back into the same behavior and patterns that got you here.
Her meds. Her drinking. Indications that there is much more than you know (or need to know) going on inside her.
She needs to work through it.
And you need to let her do that.
Without you or your son being part of it.
Take your focus off her and place it on the dude in the mirror.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
