What I basically need, is advice on how to heal. What did anybody who became better without getting his/her spouse dealt with the pain? How did they manage to control their need to look for their spouse? How did they manage not to beg for a reconsiliation? What did they do, if spouse looked for them after their decision of ending their R?
So many questions.
It was only two weeks after second brake up. It is too painful for me to continue. I do not want to deal with her lies, I do not want to be her second option, I do not want to be her doormat anymore.
I am ending the leasing of the house we were living, and we both agreed on that. Today in the morning she called me because she wanted to stay in the house and for her S22 and W to move with her so they can pay the rent. This same thing she did it with her S24, and they were continuously fighting so she finally moved out yesterday. Now that she know S24 is moving out to, she wants her S22 to pay for the rent. Right now my W is not working, therefore, she has no money. That was one of the issues she was fighting with S24, and I am pretty sure the same thing will happen with S22. I really believe she is just using every mean for her own benefit without really caring about the people she is hurting. I said to her that I was going to end the lease, and that she would have to do something else. Yesterday, she called me several times because of my headache, today after this conversation she has not called me at all. She knows what my feeling are right now, and the need that I have for her, therefore I believe she is just playing her part to make feel worse and for me to beg latter on. Like I said I do not want to deal with this anymore. I want to move on, I am just to attached to her still.
