I don't know why I feel sad all of a sudden, I cried a moment ago, I thought about H. His depression, the talk we had yesterday, the day we met...all those thoughts, really overwhelmed me. I don't know if it's normal to feel this way when I felt good about about myself all day. This whole situation sometimes makes me like giving him what he wants so I could stop having this emotional roller coaster. But at the same time this tiny little voice tells me not to give up, to wait and see. It is hard to see the love of your life just drowning in their own misery and you can't do anything about it.
