Divorced. My fault, and cant move forward

[Mrs D]

Well I do commend you for trying now to work it out as always.

After your D went through, did your H tell you he was going to start dating or did he just do it? I think him putting it right in front of you was the catalyst for things to move on.

I feel he definitely has feelings for you, but is real afraid to get hurt again.

Well, thats where I messed up again. After the divorce was final, he asked if we were going to see each other exclusively. Because we were.. I told him that if he was going to start seeing other people, I didnt want to know about it. A part of me thought that was the right answer because I knew I put him through so much. I guess I wanted him to date others to see if it was actually me that he really wanted to work things out with. I didnt think he actually would!! Now Im just kicking myself because that was never what I wanted. So now I just hope he realizes I am truly going forward with fixing myself and hopefully fixing us one day. I know its going to take time. And patience -something I am not good at.

The biggest step for me was acknowledging that I screwed things up. I never stepped back and made my mistakes my own.