I'm definitely glad that I made that known to her. I occasionally (well, more than occasionally really!) feel the need to reiterate this point to her, but I have to remember that I already told her this, a couple times actually, and she's bound to remember it when she needs to.
I too always had a hard time giving W the space she wanted and needed. I've always been a very affectionate person who truly enjoys spending every waking second with W, but that didn't jive with what she needed. She always had her independence before we met, and I'm sure she feels she lost some of that... Now, she could have done plenty to get more space, but I'm willing to accept that as a big change I'll need to make if/when our paths cross again.
I also HATED when any type of argument wasn't resolved before bedtime... I simply insisted on talking it out until I was satisfied that the issue was put to rest... which almost never happened. She is the type that needs to sit and mull it over for a while, and me being "Mr Fix It RIGHT NOW" always pushed my agenda... Another thing I'm learning to change thanks to this time I've been given.
As tough as it is, especially knowing there's an OM in the picture, I have to keep remembering these things:
It's a marathon, not a sprint I can't do anything to change her mind or actions I have to continue my GAL/180s I have to keep a PMA I need to remember to DO NOTHING most times
And the one that's hardest to accept:
I'll be fine no matter how this turns out
That last one still doesn't ring 100% true in my heart, but deep down, I know that these actions I'm taking to better myself are FOR myself... They'll help be become a better person no matter what, and since I can't MAKE W come back, I can just continue along my path, keep HOPE alive, but have NO EXPECTATIONS.
