Thanks guys! The coffee and donut thing is just so ridiculous if you ask me. I got the kids something but nothing for W. I wonder why I even think about this kind of stuff sometimes. One statement that’s used over and over on this board is the difficulty with detaching, and I see why!!!!! Sh!t, it’s a tough thing to do. I also have a hard time tracking my “feelings”. I wonder if I am improving, getting worse, doing wrong/right. Sometimes it’s really hard to get the clarity.
I am also going pretty dark with W. I think I am using some sort of LRT. Regardless, I feel I have a good understanding of the DB basics. On the flipside sometimes it’s really hard to make the most simplistic decision on how to handle certain situations with W. To be honest when I dropped the kids off with W this morning I was a bit nervous, I don’t think it showed though, the drop off was quick. I actually don’t like being in her apartment, I don’t like looking at how it’s furnished, her possessions, the pictures, nothing! I just don’t like being there for some reason.
At the end of the day if I ever want a chance towards reconciliation I will need to improve my financial situation, which I am working on. As I mentioned before, pursuing isn’t too difficult for me, detaching is.
