Dear t2
When my husband came home last night he was early, that is rare for him. I mentioned that he seemed annoyed. Well later we talked and he was really pissed off. He said he couldn't believe that I was looking over his shoulder like that (said it twice)when he was looking at the OW's street on google and it reminded him of how he felt about our marriage in the past. The bad feelings when things were goin south. He said he can't live this way and said he had nothing to hide. I told him you have nothing to hide? He said no. So I told him okay then I believe you. He sais no you don't. But I said I can't live this way either I guess I am going to have to put my trust in you. I told him I was upset too, the night before and yesterday and he is not the only one going through bad times. He said "not as bad as me" I said "yes, I am struggling with this. I am not perfect and neither are you. I am not superwoman. It really bothers me that you see the OW at work and there is nothing I could do about it. I wish she wasn't there." I told him I wished he could see things from my perspective, put himself in my shoes, and that he seems unable to at this point.

So we talked about other things, but I know he is still upset. I didn't apologize because it still bothers me that he lied and didn't come clean about that. Just got mad. But I am putting this behind me now. This week has been crappy for me. I have seen how bringing up the OW has just brought a lot more bad feelings for me. So I'm stopping that.

He asked me about going to my dad's cottage this weekend, If I still wanted to go and I said yes. So we will see if this frosty attitude of his subsides.