That's an honest question. When I started dbing there was an undeniable element of wanting to win this thing. 14 months later I feel more like I'm letting H be who he is, and not trying to control it. I've made all kinds of reasonable accommodations and efforts to be the best person and wife I can be in the situation. But I can't ignore the fact that he doesn't WANT to be with me.
I keep thinking about the way he just plain wasn't there when I had a cancer scare, literally, he went to install a computer at another woman's house. And the way he teased me for crying when my uncle died. I don't want to have to always look elsewhere than my husband for an emotional connection - isn't that what a marriage is?
He's shown literally zero interest in exploring what went wrong in our marriage or trying to fix it, for over a year. He hasn't touched me in any way, for over a year. What am I waiting for?
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
