Hopeless optimist...

[Just A Guy]

Sooooooo MC asked W tough question yesterday. She keeps reiterating to W that the "spark" is not what creates a good M it's the commitment and how you work together to make it through situations like this. She made mention again that we have a great foundation and then asked W whether she saw me as being the father of her children and I am the man she wants to build her life with.

She basically cut through a lot of the crap and told my wife to take a long hard look at whether she thinks I am the ideal mate to her. I know I am and I know she thought I was and I still think deep down she knows I am. A month back she had a dream that I was being seduced by a other woman, when she woke up she attacked me sexually and told me all about the dream. In m opinion your body and your mind don't give you those signals if there is no sexual spark there.

I wanted to remind her of all the qualities that she loves in me that I know she will never find all in another mate. But I kept my mouth shut. She asked me how I felt about the session on the way home. I told her I was glad we found this MC as she seems to be asking the tough questions and not dragging us through our issues but actively trying to find the issue/solution.

The MC seems genuinely attracted to the idea that we have a great base for a lifelong M but that it's going to take W to realize that as well otherwise it's a losing battle. MC also wants me to email her so we can talk about ways to calm my anxiety down as she said that can only hinder the process.

This morning was tough, I had my first nightmare that she had left me woke up and she was still next to me. Started thinking about how long I will be able to wake up next to her. I wanted to wake her up and tell her how much I am dying inside thinking about her leaving.

I know that there is no man out there who will be able to offer her what I do. But god I wish she comes to that conclusion sooner rather than later.