So today brought me the challenge of a lifetime. I lost my home to fire. I have started to learn and use skills here to adjust my behaviors so that I have a chance at re-constructing my marriage, those same skills have helped me survive today. I was vulnerable with my H and told him I needed him. I had to FEEL what it really means to not have control. I did not react to anything today I simply invited the emotions in and sat with them awhile. I do not know what this hardship has in store for my H and I. I will continue to focus on my simple goals, I know with this sudden loss to our family that I could easily abandon my efforts. Here is where focus needs to be a priority so I stay on my path.
M 43 H 43 M 21 T 24 Bomb 9/2011 EA 9/2011 H moved out 10/2011 I filed for D out of anger 2/2012 H moved in with OW 3/2012 focused on blame and bitterness 9/2011-6/2012 found DB 7/2012