I think you're glossing over the part that everyone is saying and that you just need to distance yourself from him. Which also means mentally. I understand that you see him as a test subject, but it also seems like an obsession for you to dissect his actions.
No one knows what's going on except for him.
Just move on and get a happier life.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
