Lots of questions and a good deal of doubt.

[mshaf]

*(Venting so that is does not spill over tonight in front of my sons)

*I started thinking about this last night and it is growing.

I find myself losing patience with WAW. Yesterday she sent the txt about my youngest walking and I asked for a pic. No response. That's pretty s****y in my book.

Also, she knows I haven't seen my boys since last Wednesday but I have to ask to see my sons tonight.

She calls for no reason; I call back, after a few minutes she says she will call me back later. She never calls.

No pics from the beach as I had asked.

She is so self-absorbed that she obviously does not care about my feelings.

Do I want to be treated like this? The answer is a resounding NO. I think I deserve a lot better. If she can't see that then F her. How hard would a D be really?

This is not the first time she has done this. Before my S3 was born she did something very similar, i.e. limited contact, limited time together, hurtful things said. I think if not for the pregnancy there probably would have been no marriage as I was getting fed up then.

One of the reasons I pushed her away is because she likes to do it to me. I became tired of feeling rejected so I quit caring. I did not concern myself with her opinions. I think I am getting to this place again. I don't even care about being mad at her because she doesn’t deserve that much of me.

She can make an effort if she wants to. If not oh well. I am tired of feeling like this. No more games, no more worry, no more trying.

I am seriously considering telling her I AM DONE.