Needing some guidance... 5

[jks]

Training yesterday was great. The people there are amazing!! The environment is very laid back and fun. The nice thing is, I can go in for a couple hours and scan the negatives that have been assigned to me and then I can just take them home on a hard drive and do my editing at home. It really is the perfect match of a job for me.

I stayed a little while longer last night to look for places to live since I live an hour and 20 min away from the area. I found an 1800 sq ft basement apt (doesn't feel like a basement, though, because it's above ground) and decided to go look at it. The place is huge. The house is located in a wonderful area and the people who own it and will be living upstairs are amazingly nice.

I actually sat down and had dinner with them after they showed me the apt. That's how much I liked them and how much they liked me. She said, the place is yours if you want it. I'm not going to do a background check because I can just feel in my heart that this will be a good thing for the both of us. She was really very sweet.

As I sit here this morning thinking about it... I do have a couple concerns. One being that they don't seem like very clean people. And I'm trying to start anew with a place of my own and to get away from feelings of clutter and messiness. I know they won't have control over my part of the home but if the outside isn't nice and clean looking then I know it's going to drive me nuts.

Also, I will have to park my car on the street. In the winter this could be a huge problem where I live. And there is a door that separately leads to the apt but you have to go down the side of the house and through a back door in the basement and then up the stairs from the basement to the second level to get there so she told me we could use her front door for convenience. I'm not sure I know how I feel about that. I don't really want other people knowing when I'm coming and going and I don't really want my kids to be running around in their home because it's so open to them.

I obviously don't know these people very well and to have my kids living with these people so closely does pose a huge concern for me.

The living situation sort of reminds me of my situation now with my mom since I'm living in her basement. I'd like to get away from that feeling. I'd really like to have my own place totally independently. I told the lady that I loved the place and that I was very interested because I loved the feeling of the apt itself and it had sooooo much space for the price. I'm just trying to weigh out everything else that was a concern.

I thought finding a place would be fun and easy and it's starting to become a little more frustrating than I wanted it to be. I guess I just need to be patient and something will open up that feels completely right.