W emailed me to ask if we could do Sunday instead of Saturday. I informed her that bank was closed.
Her response was "Right.. I'm committed to being somewhere at 11:30, so it will just have to be early, cause we have the bank, aaa, and a notary to get to. "
I responded saying that was fine and to let me know when and where and I'll be there.
When I was typing the response - all I could think was..
"I just want to get this over".
But not in a fear way.. but in a good way.
Although it is true that I am not done, I AM ready to move forward. To move past the pain and just to be done...
and the thought of not being in limboland or not worrying about her contacting me in regards to the D... honestly.. has me excited.
The thought of healing.. makes me smile.
And those thoughts pushed me to not accept pushing the signing any longer.
I.. want... to... live... well.
She has not responded with the where and when..
But I don't have that sick feeling in my stomach about it currently.
All I'm thinking is "I hope she get's back to me soon. I hope she doesn't cancel".
Because I have plans all weekend. Line Dancing on Friday night and hanging out on the beach after.
I'm spending it with people that I love dearly and vice versa.. and I just can't wait to spend the weekend with them.
Crazy things happening here.. I just don't know what to make of it.
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
