I was thinking the same thing. I don't think you realize how obsessive you're coming across. I forgot if you had mentioned if you were still seeing a C, but if you're not, it may be good to keep it in mind to keep your thoughts concentrated.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.