Yes, I will take your suggestion and slow down, do nothing and just watch the circus go by. I do tend to jump in to things with both feet when I have made a decision, and regret not thinking it through more thoroughly. I think this new behavior is a change of script that he is trying to analyze and assess my seriousness which is why I got sulky child this morning instead of spewing monster. He was not expecting me to open the cage door and say be free. Next time he will test my resolve I am sure with baiting, and a perhaps even a few crumbs of affection thrown my way if I do not fall for the baiting. Probably get the maybe, maybe line again(vague promises) and then a few random acts of kindness, and then talk of how I should see his new house, and if that does not work to make me jump through hoops and glow, the depression monster will show his face hinting at suicide and tears. What a boring script they all follow. So have to prepare canned answers to all those scenarios so I do not fall into heart over mind. Then once he leaves for the university, after having seen the calm light here, I fully intend to go with No Contact. He can crash and burn down there or limp along as he is with the little girl-not my problem.
Then it is time to fully implement my work on myself, not that I am not working on some of that now too. Fabulous energy? Well I will need it so I hope I have it. I do not like being an angry person. Thanks for the rational advice. Slowing down is hard for a person who is used to moving at mach speed with her hair on fire buring the candle at both ends.
