I don't want to exclude him...I'm so scared to have hope for him, us!

He very well could fit into this new me I'm trying to invent (little by little) but maybe he won't be enough for me anymore. That's the real scare....I will find "him" inferrer to my expectations, needs, wants!

His MLC is teaching me alot about myself here!!! It's like he's asked me one to many times if he "looks fat in those jean" and finally I say YES your a lard a$$!.

I'm sure anything I do for me will be seen as great to him, but he doesn't interpret anything as great for him, because he's undeserving! frown

Doing for me is my upward struggle here....

Thank KD-you have great responses! You make me think!


The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!