Ahhhhhh, the smell of blood. But I just had a plankton sandwich, so the need to feed is not here. Plus, my fish friend is in CA until later tonight, so it would serve no purpose to get myself all riled up for nothing.

Opt, I am taking close notes off of your test--I've never cheated, so this is a first. But believe me, I'm paying close attention.

I agree with you that Mr. W. doesn't want the same M either. Whew. I guess I'm just very apprehensive because he's written me several e-mail letters over the past year (the last was penned in November) about how M should not require work. About how he's paid to work and doesn't feel he should have to work at home.

WTF?

I'll bet he has put forth more effort and "work" in scheduling fun with Gary (Mr. Perpetual High School Student)...

And I really am intent on avoiding having anything spew from my mouth of multi-rowed teeth that resembles an ultimatum. That was the old Bruce, not the new improved one.

But I really feel that these issues are of critical mass. And that includes his propensity to sulk off alone in his cave with a six pack.

Even our MC has commented to him that his tendency to medicate in alcohol has got to be addressed. I know for sure that he's not been working on that one... And yes, this is his primary method of stress management.

Sure, I can go out and get drunk with him... don't laugh because this was exactly his suggestion at our first MC session last May. Well, guys, been there done that. And I have a closet full of the t-shirts. I've dealt with the myriad issues that compelled me to self medicate, and I no longer want to be that person.

Yes, I realize that I was getting over being that person when I met him. And I cut myself some slack because I was 26 years old and in counseling. In May, he also addressed being angry with me for not continuing to be the person I was when we met...

We'll get some resolution on this, I know. Because the signs are there that he is growing up. And Dory, the glass IS half full! It's half full because I say it is...

So, Little Blue, it seems like this journey is going to be bumpy and a little scary. I promise not to eat you if you let me cheat a little....



"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."

Albert Einstein