Stop not knowing what is going on with the paper work with D.
Start communicating about the kids via email so you can keep track.
Start using those drop off and pick up moments as a way to show that your working on yourself. Not through communication but through actions.
Start dressing better.
Start acting confident.
Start conversations at that time with the following words. " (NAME) . I am looking forward to my time with the kids. Talk to you in a couple of days. Any issues I will send you an email. Take Care."
Start controlling yourself.
Let the kids see how you are improving. GAL with them doing active activities.
They will be the ones who will communicate your improvements. When they look forward to seeing you.
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